There again. Everytime I think I'm on a good way to lead a normal life, something comes in between. Mostly myself. I'm about losing my job and most of the people around me I tend to call friends have less time for me than ever before and I dont have a clue for the reasons. At least I know the reason for the job situation. I made some mistakes in the past 2 months with some office stuff and nobody realized it until wednesday and thursday. That mistakes continued with the following work I did, basically every letter or number I typed during the last 4 months are nothing but pure waste. This is something I can do better in the future of course but obviously some people are not content about how I’m acting on people. It’s not that I’m unfriendly or something alike, I just don’t know everything that people wanna know from me. I always had problems with stepping up to somebody I don’t know, has always been like that and I don’t think you can really learn that. To a certain point, yes, I got better but it seems like its not enough.
On Friday I got a dressing down by my boss and it really hit me but I gotta say she still always stayed fair and there was no yelling or anything, she just gave me a very bad conscience because she has to fix everything and she gets the wigging. I don’t remember much she said to me, what I remember is that she said that the other guys have the same age and they can handle it, so why can’t I. That if I really wanna work there with a contract next year she has to see a huge increase of my work. And that I should make up my mind for the next two weeks if I can stand the pressure and improve myself or wether I should think about another job.
Actually I planned to go out with my co-workers this night (including my boss) but I think that wouldn’t be a good idea. Enough of that shit now, I don’t really have a choice anyway so maybe I should write about something else here too.

Let’s see… I did brownies today and my mum and dad said they taste great. And they’re right. I should work at the bakery maybe.Theres this movie I’m watching right now, I don’t have a know how its called but I saw it two years ago loved it right away. Its about two american girls who end up in a jail in thailand coz of drug smuggling. I think the leading part is played by Claire Danes but I’m not sure if its her. Ow I just found out its “Brokedown Palace”. It IS Claire Danes and the other girl I thought was very cute is Kate Beckinsale (I should know her, I watched “Underworld” just because of her). Anyway, if you can get your hands on that movie, watch it and ignore the bad critics, if I remember well it has a surprisng ending (which isn't to often in my view).