...with my head in the clouds...: July 2006

What People Do When They're Bored

Some sleep, some watch tv, some stare at the wall all day
long. I do all of that these days. Plus drawing comics. And
painting walls. Walls that are not my own and I don't have any permission for. Whatever.

It felt so empty in view

I hope it wont rain today

The result: Olives!
Lord knows why..

Sundowns & Grasshoppers

I dont wanna write about my work situation coz I know shit about that. But today was pretty nice. After school, J. picked me up, actually for a BBQ but as nobody of us was hungry we bought a huge watermelon (my stomach still hurts). Drove up to her place & then looking through single-meeting adds (did I mention she posted one for me..?). So there's (of course) a guy who seems to be really cute. We sent him a message coz his add was sth like "looking for a girl bla bla" but no hint wether he was male or female. He's 31, so I'd say thats too old for me. Anyway we exchanged some pix and he asked me if he could convince me to go for guys again, right after trying to couple me with a girl he knew (too old again). I said there's no chance but I'll have dinner with him soon lol (I'm not kidding for once). J. tries very hard to find someone for me, I'll be crushed when she leaves for spain soon coz lately she's been the only person in my reach I could rely on.
Anyway, I dont remember what we did the whole day, its 22:15 now and she picked me up at 14:00h. I really cant recall anything but eating, talking, tv and catching grasshopper for those weird nameless animals. Oh hell and she likes Tegan & Sara :)
Reminds me on that: for mel to get jealous ;)
I think I'll move to the countryside, they have such nice sundowns... But whatever, I'm hungry again and Crossing Jordan is on,
see you around,
L.

Random Stuff

So, I've been at A's place yesterday (and of course B. was there too coz I think she probably moved in and hasn't seen her own flat for months). I dunno why I went there, it's not that close and I dont like driving there with scooter anyway, but it seems like that's the only chance to see her. She still has her car. She's just too lazy for anything. Last year she went out every day, now she just spends time with B. on the couch. Thats alright if you're in love I guess, but like only the first 2 months maybe. I'm not sure for how long they're together now but it must be more than 6 months. Thats not normal in my view. Maybe I should be happy for them (or at least for A.) but I'm not. She looks bad, she has white skin. Really white, whiter than mine and I'm still pretty white. She has rings under her eyes, her hair is not colored anymore, when I got there she opened the door just wearing a shirt and boxers (it was 15:00h), so did B. and they basically looked like out of bed. I stayed til 23:00h, we played scrabble and watched the WC final. It was nice, we laughed a lot but in the end I still got back home with that certain feeling of distance. I hate not knowing whats going on in her life. I hate not really being part of her life anymore and I miss the times when it was different.

So I'm concentrating on other people. Like today. Today turned out pretty nice when I got a message by J. saying "I'm so bored, rescue me".
After driving along the countryside again, we ended up catching grasshoppers for her funny animals and I dont have a clue how they're spelled (see picture).

Animal day. I dislike cats, but the one at J's place I love (I forget her name again though).
I dont dislike cats just for fun, I dislike them coz they mostly dont like me. But not this one. Must have been my sweaty smell.

Aw yeah, I'm still at the same work cause I didnt get a strip-down for once, doesnt mean its all good though.

Humm I dunno what to write, I apologize for my absence on several chats / messengers, I just dont like the way the computer is posed. You know, with my back to the door and everyone coming in can see whats on screen, I hate that.