Fairplay

So, Holland failed. It's a mess, they deserved to win, really. All the teams I liked are already out. I even liked Portugal, but not anymore after that game. I'll put my orange shirt back in the closet.

One of my fave pix relating to the World Cup (showing some english hooligans)

What else? I'm having a day off today and dont know what to do. Therefor I finished the drawing yesterday night (1, 2).

Sundowns

Just some pictures I took some days ago, somewhere along the countryside. I don't remember where exactely, me and J. got lost. But I like those pictures, eventhough I took them out of the driving car (and god knows J. drives like hell)



[20/06/06]


I'm busy with drawing at the moment. It's a friends birthday next week and she asked me to draw the character of "the robot and the sparrow" by Jake Parker since she has seen it in my book. So I finished a larger version of what she saw and will start another one (which will look like this). I already run short on pens though.

My vacation is over and it's been a long time since I'm sad about that. This week was nice, I somehow managed to find someone to go out with me every evening, some people I graduated with and the usual guys I was used to go out.
Basically everything happend around the soccer wc, eventhough I'm not really a soccer freak I had fun watching it at several bars with (mostly) nice people (the only disappointing game was the one I looked most forward to, netherlands vs. ivory coast, the game itself, and the dutchies in the audience. First of all most of them spoke clear german all the time and then they seem to have no emotion at all). At least I had fun afterwards walking through the city with my orange shirt over my shoulders and asking people for the way.
Anyway, great feeling every night watching all those fans running around. And good weather of course.
But as you know, no entry without anything negative. My parents are mad again just because I didnt join my step aunt's birthdayparty. I had better things to do and by the way: Why would I join a party with people I cant stand or dont even really know? Just coz they're relatives? For those who remember, my step aunt is the one who once asked me "where's is your partner?" since my sister and everyone else had someone, and I said she was at home (oooow yesss, that look!!). I prefered rehearsals, going out, playing "Buzz" on playstation and watching the (very very boring, weak and unfair) soccer game italy - usa.
School tomorrow and on tuesday is my first day at work again. Scares the sh** out of me if I'm honest cause I'll prolly get to know if I can stay or not.
Anyway, that's it for my short update of "where the hell has she been".

From March To May

Hey there,

I figured there some photos I never posted, so here they are.

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There again. Everytime I think I'm on a good way to lead a normal life, something comes in between. Mostly myself. I'm about losing my job and most of the people around me I tend to call friends have less time for me than ever before and I dont have a clue for the reasons. At least I know the reason for the job situation. I made some mistakes in the past 2 months with some office stuff and nobody realized it until wednesday and thursday. That mistakes continued with the following work I did, basically every letter or number I typed during the last 4 months are nothing but pure waste. This is something I can do better in the future of course but obviously some people are not content about how I’m acting on people. It’s not that I’m unfriendly or something alike, I just don’t know everything that people wanna know from me. I always had problems with stepping up to somebody I don’t know, has always been like that and I don’t think you can really learn that. To a certain point, yes, I got better but it seems like its not enough.
On Friday I got a dressing down by my boss and it really hit me but I gotta say she still always stayed fair and there was no yelling or anything, she just gave me a very bad conscience because she has to fix everything and she gets the wigging. I don’t remember much she said to me, what I remember is that she said that the other guys have the same age and they can handle it, so why can’t I. That if I really wanna work there with a contract next year she has to see a huge increase of my work. And that I should make up my mind for the next two weeks if I can stand the pressure and improve myself or wether I should think about another job.
Actually I planned to go out with my co-workers this night (including my boss) but I think that wouldn’t be a good idea. Enough of that shit now, I don’t really have a choice anyway so maybe I should write about something else here too.

Let’s see… I did brownies today and my mum and dad said they taste great. And they’re right. I should work at the bakery maybe.Theres this movie I’m watching right now, I don’t have a know how its called but I saw it two years ago loved it right away. Its about two american girls who end up in a jail in thailand coz of drug smuggling. I think the leading part is played by Claire Danes but I’m not sure if its her. Ow I just found out its “Brokedown Palace”. It IS Claire Danes and the other girl I thought was very cute is Kate Beckinsale (I should know her, I watched “Underworld” just because of her). Anyway, if you can get your hands on that movie, watch it and ignore the bad critics, if I remember well it has a surprisng ending (which isn't to often in my view).